Friday 29 January 2021

Saturday, 30th January 2021

Dear Diary,

How to start? I have stopped writing my diary loooong time ago, when I was still single.  

I have been blessed with a nice husband and healthy children, have a roof on top of our health, did work from home for awhile and went out working for 2.5 years before I feel something is wrong with my left elbow and on both shoulders.  They have been aching since early 2020 but me being me, I just ignore the pain thinking "They will go away, probably just muscle pull".  But no, the pain is still there.  It did go away during lockdown (covid-19) because I didn't work as much but after lockdown is finished and I go back to work again, the pain came back.  In October 2020, I had to go to see a doctor who told me don't work too much (being a cleaner, I used to work up to 27 hours a week).  In November 2020 I went to get an ultrasound and x-ray, found out I have tendonitis on my left elbow and supraspinatus substance tear on my right shoulder.  My last work of 2020 was on 23rd December 2020, the last 2.5 week of work was a big struggle and 1.5 week before my last day of work, I didn't work much hour at all.

This makes me think about myself, my body, my mental health, have I really like REALLY taking care of myself?  No... no I have not.  It is never too late.  That is why I chose health first and resigned from my job.  My dreams is working from home where I can still take care of children.  I don't want to loose moments with them, I want to be there for them, I think all Mothers are.  Blessed All Mothers (all beings, human or non human).

I have been following my friend: Poppy Glejita's Instagram @glejita_yoga for a while, seeing her becoming fitter and fitter, lifting her body weight easily, seeing her become muscly and even her journey in Yoga.  In 2 of her posts: 1 post was showing how to bend properly and 1 post was showing how to align our spine properly before doing squats.  Those are interesting!!!  I have followed and even bought fitness program from IG people but None of them are showing this.  This is very important not just to avoid back pain but also for posture.

From our short chat on Wednesday, 27th January 2021, I found out that my shoulders are not symmetrical, my left shoulder is a little bit higher than my right.  Without me telling her the full details of my health, she asked me if my right shoulder is the aching shoulder.  I was so surprised!  So I told her what happened and asked if her LYT Yoga method can assist me with this (aching and unsymmetrical shoulder), she said "Yes".

So I have been practising how to get my posture correctly when I am sitting, driving, standing and even now as I am typing this.  

I will have 2 physiotherapy sessions next week and will also -hopefully- connect with @glejita_yoga via zoom.

Looking forward to the process of getting back to healthy again.

My favourite mantra, I learned from Late Louise Hay: "All is well in my World".  I know no matter what happens in my life, everything is going to be alright. Another diary post on Louise Hay.

Thank you for spending time reading this.


All is well in Your World 🙏 💓